Lyrics and Me part 1M

I always analyze lyrics, always. They are the most important thing to me in a song. Some listen for voice, guitar.. beat... etc. I, lyrics. A voice can be less than desirable but if the lyrics are solid I can see past that and the beauty of it all emerges. I was cleaning today with my iTunes on random when a few songs came on that I have not heard in a while. I found myself not only analyzing the lyrics but myself today .. all while cleaning the dishes by hand (dishwasher broke)I I find my mind wonders a lot these days. Reader's what do we have behind door number 1 : It's self reflection time!!! Oh well, heck, why not!?

Rachel's - Last Things Last
This band is remarkable. I have 3 of their albums, in fact, Waters From the Same Source is on my top 5, all time favorite songs. IT might just be number 1. This song stuck out today mainly because I have not actually taken time to listen to the lyrics before today. "Last things last is not enough, You can't accept this, Don't give in just yet" The lyrics are pretty simple but I found a bit of truth in them. Maybe it is because of my own personal experiences and the changing within but instead of hearing this song today and feeling sad, I felt a glow. This song is tender and extremely moving at the same time strong. "to hold on so you don't break" I think everyone applies songs differently depending on when they hear them. I used to cry to this song not realizing what it was actually saying to me. It's a good thing I had friends and family saying the same thing. They were right... just hold on and time will heal. I have a few cuts and bruises still but those are fading fast.




Bright Eyes- Bowl of Oranges
Enough said , Right! Come on it's Bright Eyes and until recently the kid could not write a bad song if he tried. This song is definitely my theme song for 2009. Here is how I apply it to me. "Everything seemed different and completely new to me" It's weird how this just happens. It really is as if one day POOF you are different. This actually took place towards the end of 2008, but the feeling of walking around in life with a care free smile without the weight of hurt/sadness on your chest, noticing things, people, places you hadn't before has really come to fruition this year. Think 500 Days of Summer.

Now, I know better then to think this transformation took place overnight."So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone. And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow."I have come through some pretty deep stuff. Thinking it would NEVER get better, I would NEVER be happy, I would NEVER be in love again (again), I will always be alone. I know now for certain you should NEVER say NEVER. Show me one person that at one time or another has not felt alone. I only feel alone now because of choice. I did my fair share of watering my face over the last few years. It's been such a long time since I have cried, I actually can't recall. I do have a more positive outlook on life, me and the future. It's going to okay, it always was, I just had to let it.

"But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall. Then I think we would see the beauty then. We would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges, like a story told by the fault lines and the soil." Yes, there are some things I wish I hadn't done but in the big picture, looking back at my life's still- It's BEAUTIFUL even with its uneven lines and cracks in the paint. I wouldn't be me today if ...it hadn't been for yesterday and I can't wait until tomorrow.